Suspension
Out of the sixty seconds in every minute, we spend fifty-nine seconds in a state of suspension, half a second in state of anxiety, and the other half second in a variable mental and emotional state. This is true for every minute, every day, for every lifetime. What is always, unequivocally stable in human life is its mental state of suspension. We are always suspended between the past and future. We are suspended between duties and desires. We are suspended between personal dreams and other people’s expectations. We are suspended between opportunities and obstacles, ambition and laziness.
We are suspended between what is and what isn't. We are suspended between how things are and how they should be. We are suspended between what will hopefully come and what we pray will never to come about. We are suspended between what we have and what we do not have, between what we have lost and what we do not want to let go of.
Mankind’s state of suspension is so continuous and omnipresent to provide the first, although perverse, experience of eternity. To the human mind, the suspension is more familiar than the idea of God’s presence. Suspension is the first and strongest feeling that accompanies man from his birth; in time it becomes so precise and definite that its perception eventually replaces every other feeling, emotion, personality and projects. This suspension is so pervasive in our mind that is difficult to recognize, just as the fish cannot see and perceive the surrounding sea. It is this state of suspension that makes us unhappy, indeed it is unhappiness itself.
There are two moments in which suspension is attenuated and become silent: when we choose revenge and when you choose forgiveness and love. Revenge silences suspension and brings us a temporary sensation of pleasure and satisfaction; love and forgiveness extinguish the state of suspension and bring true, lasting joy.
Jesus offers us two jewels that we can use to break free forever from suspension and unhappiness.
The first is the procedure to learn true love. He says: This is my commandment: love one another as I love you. Literally: This is the procedure [in Greek: entolè] of mine: that you love one another as (I) loved you. This is Jesus’ proposal on how to win over the devastating state of suspension; the winning procedure is His way to love, His way of understanding, His way to have compassion and mercy without revenge or defiance, struggle or conflict.
His second jewel is a source of unheard wisdom and knowledge, the reality of realities, the original and supreme truth: It was not you who chose me, but I who chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit that will remain, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name he may give you.
Literally: You did not choose (for you) me, but I chose (for me) you and I have set you that you should go and bear fruit, fruit that continues to exist, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name he will give you. The illuminating truth that he chose us and chose us so that we may carry the fruits of happiness and well being, if loved and accepted in our soul and mind, has the power to permanently dissolve any state of suspension and anxiety. From the time Satan broke away from God and His love, for Satan and his angels there is no other place to stay, no other air to breathe, no other indulging embrace than a state of suspension, a state of eternal, cold, empty suspension. Suspension is the state of the devil’s soul.