Being 32 MAR ORD 2

If you do what you do not feel, you do not feel what you do.
If you do not love what and who you are now right now this very moment, 
you will love what others expect you to be,
and you will have to beg for their approval and their consent your entire lifetime.
If you do not respect with divine care the essence that you are,
you will fear the image that others have of you, and you will live for your reputation.
Whatever you do, it is the happiness and joy  
with which you do it that gives it meaning, sense, direction. 
Whatever task that is accomplished without joy, even if it is the most important, sacred, essential one in the world, is without meaning, sense, direction,
and it does not move any energy of life or love.
Letting desires, expectations, calculations of families, society, religious and politic systems 
guide, support, transport, or shape you means denying the divine design on you and your spiritual essence; it means resigning yourself to accepting that everyone will always and only be your severe, tireless overseers.
When one searches for joy in reward and in gratitude for what one has done,
it means that what has been done does not come from our true selves and not even from joy,
and there was no joy in what was done.
Those who search for satisfaction from others for what they are or do 
are not happy and self-confident about what they are or do.
Those who search for approval do not love themselves and are searching for authorization.
Those who search for appreciation feel useless and need to be homologated.
Those who search for consent do not believe in themselves and are searching for permission to exist.
Those who search for applause have no trust in themselves and are unsure.
Those who search for acclaim are afraid of their own desires and are insecure.  
Those who search for recognition do not appreciate themselves and feel left out.  
Those who search for praise do not trust themselves and feel like nobody.
Those who search for blessings are suspiscious of themselves and are constantly searching to be assigned.  
Those who search for triumph, appeal, or support feel terribly alone and useless.
Those who search for joy outside of themselves will live failure as a prohibition, misunderstanding as a missed licence, difficulties as a curse, a scolding as a persecution. Those who search for joy outside of themselves will always be in conflict with everything and everyone because they are is conflict with the radious, divine, amazing, wonderful being made by God's hands and upn whom the God of Love has written his name.
Life has not been given to us to know joy and gratitude from outside of our divine being for what we do and accomplish, but to generate joy and gratitude in what we do and accomplish, always and everywhere, from the heart, from the central engine of our divine being. Joy does not search for approval, appreciation, consent, applause, acclaim, recognition, praise, blessings, triumph, appeal, support, gratitude, acceptance, position, authorization, permission, homologation. Joy is happiness and that is it all.